Finding my way...

feeling mojo or is it goji?

well my last post was alitle dark and depressing and that was how i was feeling at the time... it was a rough beginning of the week.. so so so dang tired...  today i am feeling good, especially for having only 5 hours of sleep and being startled awake by a 6am call that my friend was going to the hospital by ambulance and having no coffee - all in all.. doing well!

I did some investigating and started taking Acai berry (1500mg strength) on Wednesday... along with drinking some GOCHI juice (goji berry) - in my attempt to take care of myself... next week starts excercise (famous last words) - and I have to tell you - i feel great - i feel well rested, and i have some serious mental clarity, none of which i had before for quite some time.

I am still staying up late, running around being super busy - but the first night i tried the goji juice, i slept SO soundly -  and when i woke up i felt refreshed... and alert...  it's been a decade or so for me that i have felt so good...  and this morning when i was startled awake - and had to get up at 6am - to rush to my friends house, i did it with ease...

i do feel some positive effects from this juice... some other positive effects that Jeff is benefiting from too.. {wink wink} serioulsy been awhile since i felt ALIVE.. loving it. and its only day 2 and i feel great -  so i am hoooked on the juice. man...

fyi, my friend is ok... long story, cannot blog about it :) all is well...

Went to see billy joel and elton john last night, had a blast! looking forward to a fun weekend w. the fam!

scattered

my mind is scattered...  it is like an autofocus lens, struggling to focus.. i can hear the cranks going back and forth... zoom... zoom...

i have many irons in the fire right now, which is great - i have been given many great opportunities recently - and i am jumping on them... but.. still.. i feel scattered... maybe i am just tired. if you saw the dark circles under my eyes, you would agree... maybe i am trying to do too much at once... maybe i am terrible at time management... which i think i am. I am great @ Crunch time... though.. but leading up to crunch time i am so easily distracted.... i can focus on the urgent... but i will focus on the non important urgent... first... which is not smart. i know.

i think i am just tired...  feeling overwhelmed and a ton of pressure... money is ok now, it will be tight in a few months... i have some things that are going well... towards the tipping point... but i get scared... everyone so often, fear grips me and i cannot breathe...

i am staying up way too late...  i need to sleep - that is what my problem is today.. and then i get overwhelmed and panicky when i don't sleep... i feel like every minute i am not doing something, i am failing...

i am working to find the balance of being home... new job of a househould... and building two businesses... and keeping my sanity to balance it all... how do super women do it?

tomorrow will be a new day... and I will be bright eyed and busy tailed... maybe a power nap is in order